It’s another day in the (insert my surname here) . Where failed tablet swallowing leads to me getting thrown up on(Don’t ask) and I find out, late as per usual, that Walter and Paige have another fight (incase you’re wondering YES I am still talking about Scorpion) P.S I can feel your judgement from here and I’m NOT liking it..
I must admit my crush on Machine gun kelly has revealed itself as he raps in a girly cowboy bar with a bunch of girls who dance on bar Countertops. Yes, the Little Mix video, Those girls are hella attractive too.
Another revelation I had today was the fact that I don’t want to stay here. As in for once in my life my brain decided to make a decision, now, out of all times that it wants to get a scholarship and leave this country. A bit late if you ask me. Maybe if I cared last year i could have made decent grades but unfortunately my minds a stubborn shit who didn’t wanna do anything it wasn’t passionate about. I tried. Don’t get me wrong. I just had too many brainfarts during the exams, and my classes, and at home…Gee would you look at that …Maybe it is me .
Don’t get me wrong. I love my country, that’s not why I want to move really… I love the vibrance, the people and the culture and the way when we walk down the street people casually sing Voetsak(its like a rude way of saying “go away!” but used way too commonly in South Africa) Zuma and toi toi any and every day of the week. No Judgement there. Our president really is a twit.
But I feel like if i don’t make a move now I never will. It’s as if I know I will become complacent and start dreaming smaller and smaller till I’m the very thing I swore I’de Never become, ordinary. Someone who didn’t make a change in the world, or leave her mark, someone who didn’t do anything legendary cut she never had the balls to go out adventuring.
it’s not like I need to whack a Police officer with a protest sign or chain myself to a tree for a week . I doesn’t really matter how I make a difference or where or even if anyone knows about it, I just want to leave a mark of happiness somewhere . As cheesy as it sounds I happen to think that’s the closest thing humanity has to immortality …other than the obvious become rich a dictator (emphasis on the DICk part)
Might I just add that two weeks ago I braved the sun(An enemy of a victim of Lupus) and attended my first protest. I was very proud. Walked almost 8 Km. More on that another time .
I wanted that whole experience of finding my true self and growing up … you know like in all the movies where against all odds the teenager moves out to college and has their own life. Learns to deal with things on their own, matures ,finds their purpose and BAM the end they know what they want in life and that’s where it does from there. But alas, Life is not a movie, Life is a bouquet of roses in a Hurricane.
Sometimes prickly, sometimes sweet, never in the same place and very chaotic.I came up with that one all on my own. I’m feeling as pleased as punch with myself right now …
Allow me to bask in my glory briefly …
Ok all done .
Back to where we were:
You know initially I wanted to keep this PG but then I figured .. seriously who does anymore ?
Kids these days say shit that my parents would wash my mouth out with soap and baptise me to be sure back in the day. The times are changing and its no longer about what words we use, it’s about what we are trying to say. Ever seen many PG posters at protests recently? dDon’t think so .
Coming back to my dancing on bar tops comments. Remind me to put that on my bucket list. Not that I need to be drunk to do it . I just would like to have that experience. If i had to logically question everything on my bucket list it would take wayyyyyy more lines than this. Not to mention some of the things on the list arent remotely logically explainable.
A simple answer to why in this case is like every to be teen I had a list of movies i had to watch before venturing into my teens and future adulthood. Amongst this list lies movies like Cliques, Aquamarine, The Breakfast Club, Clueless and of course, the infamous Coyote Ugly . If you haven’t watched it yet go check it out now. It’s a wonderful story in my opinion where the main character (you guessed it ) Dances on bar tops occasionally. A much deeper storyline than that of course but that’s what made me decide to add that onto the bucket list. While I’m here lets just also mention the reason for my bucket list…. Yep. It’s the movie The Bucketlist . About two aged men who go through their last days completing their bucket lists together before they die. A wonderful movie really. With a another much deeper storyline I won’t dive into right now either .
Shout out to my favourite band right now, The Bleachers . Their previous album was amazing and I’m expecting their new one to be just as impressive as that one.
Boy I really hope its good .
I find it funny how much faith and hope we put in our favourite bands and singers . We rely on them to make us feel certain emotions, bring some nostalgia into our lives and attach need memories to songs. It’s a wonderful job a songwriter has, as does the rest of the team that comes up with the music. They have the power of influence.
Think about your favourite memory, there’s a song that you can assign to it right ? And even if the lyrics of the song don’t make sense to anyone else you somehow mange to find an emotional attachment to those specific words in the song because of that memory. For example the song By Imagine Dragons ( another great band you should totally check out) called I Bet My Life, I happen to think of it as my relationship with god, For various reasons . But the writer of the song wrote it because of his relationship with his parents. two different people, two different meanings. Its like abstract art. We all find something different when we read between the lines. And isn’t that a beautiful thing ?
People who have a deep appreciation for music and art have my friendship already. It’s as if you don’t need to know the other people to connect.
Song of the day Stay Together – Noah Cyrus (okay yeah i know But don’t judge me. Her song is particularly catchy) I admit that i do not really relate to this song at all because I’ve never really had a S.O in my life that i needed to ‘Stay Together for a night” with. Even if Noah’s intentions in the song is just to talk. But the beat is catchy and I’m addicted to the clean version. Makes me feel less gangster #KeepingItCool
Life lesson learnt today : When you think you’re running out of pecorino romano cheese. You’re probably right and should plan ahead unless you want to wake up in the morning and find that you suddenly have none left. If you’re a lazy shit like me, you probably left the cheese wrapping in the cheese drawer, and if you’re desperate (like me once again) you’ll have the urge to go lick that wrapper.DO NOT GIVE IN TO THE URGE.
A Very Erratic Human
(With Amazing Taste in Music)